I am back in hospital and I have to pinch myself every now and then to remind myself that I am here for a good reason. I am here for the good of my health and after all, if you do not have your health then really, you have nothing. When I am tired and lacking in any energy it can be really easy to have a bit of a sulk that I am here, that my life is on hold while the world continues to keep on going outside these walls. It can be really easy to give into that urge to feel sorry for myself but I know, ultimately, it is not really going to serve me any good purpose. So, I sit here and look for something to be happy about. And as much as it might be easier to sulk, I have to admit I can still find things to be happy about.
I have an excellent medical team who I know has my best interests in mind. I am able to talk to my friends and family daily. I have access to the internet and great reading material. I will be able to go home in a few days and then my life will keep on going the way I want it to.
They may only seem like small wins but really they are all I need. I have my family and friends only a phone call away. They see me when they can. That is all I ultimately need.
So while I am tired and have no energy, I have to be here. And really I am lucky to have somewhere to come to when I need it. I get quality medical care which if I didn’t have then I wouldn’t be here at all. And that makes me happy.
“We tend to forget that happiness doesn’t come as a result of getting something that we don’t have, but rather of recognising and appreciating what we do have.” – Frederick Keonig
All the best, Lily
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